Rainbow and Unicorns

Disclaimer: This is totally random. 

So I went to the store a while ago to buy stuff and so I was browsing all the goodies and whatnot when suddenly,

I saw him. 

Then, I heard the music. A symphony of angels playing the song of the heavens. Oh, such a marvelous sound! In that moment, I turned my head slowly and time seemed to stop.

I felt like I was suspended in air, lost in time and space.

It was just me and him and an ocean of space separating us, separating me from my dream, separating me from the bliss I can experience with him.

I walked, slowly but surely, to him and I grabbed him in my arms.

But then, I saw my wallet and I remembered I didn’t have enough.

I was devastated.

So close yet so far away.

My nutella~ My sweet, sweet nutella~ When will we be together again? I love you so much. 

I walked in desolation away from the nutella and went on with my ordinary, boring, no-nutella life.

There’s a fine line between vocal and talkative.

I can confide with a blog but not with the people around me. I can be perfectly honest with a chosen few but not with my family.

It is only now that I understand the distinction.

I am naturally talkative. I am a bubbly, energetic, free spirit. Nevertheless, I keep my mind shut. I believe the only persons who truly know me is my Creator and myself.

This is the reason why.

I operate on a different level than the average.

If every one else’s mind is on the AM, mine’s on the FM. I’m on a different frequency. I perceive things differently. I think on a deeper perspective, far beyond my age. Mature to some, or just plain crazy.

Now the reason I’m not vocal is because I’m afraid that people might misunderstand my weirdness and make the situation worse. Whatever I tell them, they just won’t get it unless you think like me.

There are only a few “Mes” out there so I only confide to a chosen few who understand. Unless you think like me, there’s no way in hell I’ll confide in you.

I don’t even know what to make of this information.

This time, I promise…

There a hundred couple of things I WANT to do but a thousand other more I NEED to do.

But like the typical Miss Independent that I am, I have to stump the wants for the needs which is why such passions as music and literature went down a few notches on my priority list.

But just wait and see.

When I am done with all I need to do, I will get my bass back and groove and practice like a madman. I’ll buy myself a new acoustic guitar and cipher songs, jam all day and night, and compose new songs.

I will read classics by Austen, Bronte, Hugo, and the like. I will read all the Paulo Coelho books I haven’t yet and collect them all. I will read more contemporary books from Green, Gaardner, etc.

I will write poetry and stories and screenplays for films I hope will come. I will dream the night and day away and blog in the process.

I will do all these things and more until my heart is brimming with joy.

The only question is WHEN will that time come, when I am finally free of the need-to-dos and I can finally focus on the want-to-dos for a change.

Sooner rather than later, I hope.

Yoda’s Post

I believe there are seasons in your life when you think that the problems you have now are the biggest problems you’ll ever have. 

But that’s wrong. 

The only thing constant is change.

Everything changes. Even problems. 

When you think that you’re stuck in a dead-end situation, that’s wrong. You only think that because you’re so overwhelmed by the situation that you don’t see that it’s just a phase in your life that you’ll have to get over with so when you grow up and you look back, you’ll laugh at yourself for your stupidity. 

We grow up. We change. Time changes. Everything changes. 

So, don’t lose hope. There’ll be change. Just wait and see. Patience is the key.

The Thing

I have this thing, and I don’t really know if it’s a good thing but it’s still a thing nonetheless.

I am immediately attracted to any average, slightly muscular-build kind of guy with gorgeous eyes, a straight nose and a British accent.

I have a thing for Brits.

I think this makes me quite racist.

Okay, bye.

The Rebel

I think I have the tendencies of becoming an activist. 

The thing I dislike the most is when anyone, and I mean anyone - parent, teacher, friend, etc - tells me what to do. I hate being dictated. I’m so used to being independent, raising my own, and making my own decisions that I get irritated when anyone questions my judgement. 

Of course, when it comes to the welfare of others, I’d rather be dictated and just follow orders but when it comes to my welfare, no one should and could tell me what to do.

That being said, considering that I have plans to go to UP Diliman and I’m quite the extreme and outspoken advocate of all things rational, I might be prone to getting into uprisings, maybe even leading them myself. 

(I’m so random. T.T)

Experiment No. 1

I have this tendency to ramble a lot especially when my mind is overloaded and exhausted. I become sort of like a robot-zombie and not have sense of what I’m doing.

I swear, I just lose myself in time or space or whatever and do random stuff out of nowhere. I am particularly dangerous when I’m sleepy because I just get lost in my head and do the wrong things which is why I don’t really like playing when I’m sleepy ‘cause I hit the wrong notes and whatnot due to lack of awareness and attention and logical reasoning. 

So I’m gonna type all my random thoughts in my blog during my robot-zombie moments to laugh at my ridiculosity in the morning. 

Speaking of robts and zombies, I dreamt I was a zombie last night or whatever, some kind of zombie-apocalypse infection spread out and my parents were preventing me from becoming one of “them” which is thoughtful yet freaky at the same time. Freaky because it was about zombies and freaky because I found it thoughtful. I must be really, really weird and different from the average person. 

I swear, I am typing random shizz here which I don’t even know if I’m making sense and if anyone will even bother reading stupid stuff like this. All I know is Adele is playing in the background and its keeping me stuck to earth and preventing me from drifting into space. The random typing of the keyboard also sticks me like glue into chair into a partial form of awareness, I guess. I think I’m not making sense again. 

I have to finish Biochem. I have to finish Biochem. I have to finish Biochem. 

Ooh, I’m typing without looking at the keyboard. Awesome! \m/ 

I CAN’T GIVE YOOOOUUU WHAT YOU THINK YOU GAVE ME!!! Turning Tables. <3,  one of my favorite songs eveeeerrr. <3 <3 <3

Um, okay. I might make coffee now and start with Biochem so I can sleep. Okay, then. Bye! :) 

5 Randoms

  1. I find exercise to be relaxing so I try to work out as much as possible. Studies show that regular exercise improves blood circulation and releases happy hormones to relieve stress. Plus, it sets my brain in a good mood. :) 
  2. I like nuts. A lot. I try to eat less of them, though since they’re really fatty. Hmm, rich in Iron though, good for the brain. :/ 
  3. I’m a neat freak. Only in terms of my stuff and my schedule. I like things to be organized because messiness disorients me. 
  4. I cannot function properly without my watch. Time is gold. It may seem impossible to believe and it may sound exaggerated but I really am busy. I have a lot of responsibilities to attend to and things to accomplish so for a person like me, time is really important which is why it is important for me to keep track of it so I don’t get lost in the midst of doing something. 
  5. I always carry a pen in my pocket. Because pens tend to get lost right when you need them the most. I always carry a pen in case of emergencies (e.g. lectures, signatories, letters, etc). Better safe than sorry, right. ;) 

I know I&#8217;m too old for this but eating Milo is one of my favorite guilty pleasures. :3

I know I’m too old for this but eating Milo is one of my favorite guilty pleasures. :3

Random

I like coffee. A lot.

I drink more coffee than milk which must partially be a reason on why I’m so petite. But anyways, I like the fact that coffee has a kick but still has a little kiss of sweetness to it. I drink coffee every morning before and/or during my quiet time. :) 

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